to lose what we had.

- to lose it all -

There is this saying that you can have the girl for like forever and that she can stay, but it can also happen that in just a moment, just like that, she can also leave you, forever.

I guess this concept or whatever you want to call it can apply to other instances, like relationships, in general. Everything can be going on so well, or so it seems. And yet, in just one moment of flawed mannerisms, where the curtains fall to reveal the truth, what was there, which seemed to bear a thousand promises, could just crumble and shatter, into a thousand pieces. And neither of you seem to want to put these pieces back into place, because even if you do, the scars and cracks still remain, to remind you of that painful moment, even if it was to last for just a second.


When then were honest smiles and shared confidences,
it now has just turned to silly pretense and awkward coincidences.
Where neither of us can find anything much to talk about,
what more share with such openness and mutual understanding,
that by itself speaks volumes of the depth of what we had.


But what a pity.

In the search for something more, we lost what we had and what should have been kept safe and precious.