its raining now as im typing this. so no, im not out with the Lamers. just as well i guess. for the better too. and i really think so.
one thing for sure, im dryer here.

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the girlfriend said "you're free now!!"
:D
yet i felt nothing.

yes if you're reading this,
i AM talking about that MSN conversation.

when you told me the news, i didnt know what i was feeling.
and i still dont.
i wasnt jumping up and down with glee and joy.
neither did i feel so downcast or depressed.

i was just numbed of any feelings.

maybe its been too long already, this whole business of being "just friends".
and getting teased or doubted by friends, going "sure nottt".
and me just getting tired of trying to convince them with "yah!!"

that when u proved you can at last move on,
im just like, "oh ok. yeah. cool."

but being friends, i just wished you could have told me yourself. instead of me getting to know about it from the others.
but i guess its unfair of me to be blaming you coz you would have argued back, how to.
coz its been ages since we had a decent conversation.
that of normal buddies, with no strings attached.

i dont know how i should be treating this and you're not helping one bit.
if you want me to say sorry, i guess i should.


but i didnt ask you to wait.
neither did i give any hints whatsoever of any promise to something more.
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anyways.
I AM SAM
tonight at 1030 on Channel 5.
a real tear-jerker, get your tissues ready girls (and maybe guys too who dare to show their sensitive side) .

adios.