on love.

"Your sadness may double, but at least you'll feel whole."

a roughly- remembered quote from the Ch8 drama currently showing. on how you'd feel when you've found that other someone. the someone who'd complete that other half of your heart which had remained empty no matter what you had tried to fill it up with. its like at long last, you feel utter happiness and a sense of whole. that you're complete.

in another drama,
Girl was in love with one of her childhood friends, Guy, while the other of the childhood friend was in love with her. and so you get a love triangle. alas, Guy didnt reciprocate Girl's feelings, and went on to have countless relationships. each time he started to feel something real for the girl, he'd run away and start the cycle all over again. then something happened that changed the course of all their lives. and out of that incident, Guy realised, at last acknowledging that the person he had always loved was Girl. however, it was a different case for Girl, as she finally saw how sincere the other guy was for her and grew to love him instead.

thing is,
you dont always win in love, which can be a sad thing. because as showed in this show, you can be just too late. you were too late because you didnt know how to treasure when you had it, and when you at last have feelings for that person, he / she has already moved on.

in what i thought was such a bittersweet scene,
Girl went to meet Guy to pass him her wedding invitation card ( she accepted that other guy's proposal ). when he refused to accept it because he didnt want to believe that she really loved that other guy, she countered by saying that she thought he was in love with another girl. but he denied with all solemness, saying that she was the one he truly loves.

and just in that instant, you can see it her face the regret at how that love could not become a reality because she had already decided to entrust her heart to someone else. also regret for the both of them that he chose not to see her when he was all she saw, then.

i just feel sad la for such wasted chances just because you didnt treasure what you had, because you didnt know then how much it actually means to you. it is just like what they say, "a heart is so precious; thats why we protect it so ferociously and rarely give it away." that when you do at last give it away, only to have it returned in shreds and pieces would you be crumbling on the floor, trying to piece it together again.

and thats why on a personal level,
i simply cannot understand how some people can so easily slip in and out of relationships. its like in a month or so after a break- up, they can just get on with another person. would you forget the one before, that easily ? can you, even ? is he / she that forgettable? so insignificant, they can just that easily be something of a past ? i mean, yah you should move on and all that stuff.

but even so, is to be able to feel for another what you had felt for someone else not so long ago, a sign that what was felt wasnt so real ? wasnt all that deep after all ?

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"the moment when i would have ceased to feel the absolute necessity of a life with her- i have thereby ceased to love her."