im inspired by what ive read,
by what you've written.

but as much as i want to let you know,
to let you in,
its still tough to let my guard down, even if for a bit.

i want to see you again.
but i know that if i do, it'll just be a pointless thing.
coz for sure i'll be tongue- tied.
or worse still, be stammering.

and i'd never dare to really look into your eyes.
lest you see what you're not supposed to.
lest it'll be too obvious what im trying to tell you.

and yet,
if only you knew.

but we're just not meant to be,
no matter what the connection we feel.

you're better off with your own life,
and me with mine.

yet i cant help wondering what would happen,
if i were to just go up to you and give you a tight hug.
touch your cheeks with butterfly kisses.

would you turn away, aghast.
or would you just be stiff cold.

or would you in fact hug me back,
calming this self down.

and would i then only stop wondering?

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