great.
i wrote a damn long entry and POOF!
computer buat hal and there goes my effort.
its been a few hours since.
kinda lost the mood after that but here i am again.

anyways.
aunt called telling that they would not be coming over to stay this Raya.
and just for your info, this is the aunt who has SEVEN ( hyper + loud + big- sized ) kids, and who is residing in Kuala Lumpur.
yes. that mud place.

now, just days ago,
sis and i were lamenting about how cramped and crowded this tiny house will be come Nov 3rd.
and how we would have to resume the oh so familiar roles of old maids, endlessly clearing and cleaning up, after them.
coz they are indeed a messy bunch.

but when mom broke the news just now during the pre- dawn meal,
i actually felt SO SAD that they they were not coming afterall.
that i dont need to share the pillows.
that the house will not be oh so damn messy.
that i dont need to be a freaking old maid.

i actually did feel that cliche expression,
a gaping hole in your chest.
and i was surprised i actually felt it.

i mean.
yes they are a noisy bunch and all and it just gets so freaking irritating to have to attend to NINE people, two of whom are a pair of VERY hyper-active twin boys.
but !
we only get to see them ONCE a year, which is, during the Raya times.
so the fact that we wont get to see them this year is just heartbreaking la.
and i do love the twins, Othman & Omar.
they are so adorably naughty but very intelligent too.

and its their very loud characters that make their visit endearing as well.
where their warmth and energy would fill up an otherwise quiet house . .

. . .

dont mind me.
melancholy's settling in.


on another note.
mom's already planned a holiday trip to KL in Dec.
which coincidentally fits in very nicely with the 2nd week of term break.
so we'll probably be visiting them instead.
and thats something to look forward to.


the season of spring (cleaning) has already started as preparations for the Raya.
starting today.
and this time round, we got to do it bit by bit.
coz you know, being without food does not make us as energetic to do a full- blown spring clean.

dad's started painting.
and i can say im 200% sick of the smell, what with the painting done to my block as well.
should have told him to get that odour-less paint.


trip to COURTS tomorrow!
to check out new sofas.
and hopefully it will not rain.
or plans would have to be cancelled AGAIN.

might be getting an oven too.
yes. how pathetic aint it? that this house does not have an oven.
and for someone who can be sure she prefers baking to cooking, i sure as hell have been missing out a lot.


its already been a week of school.
liek can the world go round just a bit slower.

. . .

i am so looking forward to having Archery Classes.
: )