tues 020805

D.o.O.k.i.E

trip yest to the National Library was purposeful and eventful. ok, not reallie a trip la. haha. more like study session about Johnnyx with the babes, Dee, D, and Mie.

and so its settled and done with.
~phew~

but im still going back there, maybe on my own time sometime. its a reallie coOol place for solitary hangout.
>.<


leaving fer Jessie's in about an hr's time. so there goes my afternoon. will continue SSLx in the night. with 2 more lectures to cover. i hope!


using orange is sucha pain in the ass uh.
haha

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anyways.
got a lot on my mind recently about stuffs. but whats new uh. i always have a lot on my mind about a lot of stuffs. so nothing new there.

Sis been buggin me to drop by Deli and 'clear the air'. dont know what she means exactly but i kinda know la what she really means. [talkin in riddles arent i] but yeah. i know what to do la. its just that time's been rather tight fer me this moment. i think fer everyone else too.

[when wld we not be tied down by time uh? guess its all about making and managing time]

i dont know whats my problem la. its not like im running away or what. if so, from what.

its just me la i guess. i just find it hard to accept the harsh truths of reality. i'd rather turn away and be in my own world of denial. i think the world is so cruel. when will one be able to truly feel pleased and satisfied with the world and all the shit going around uh.

i know im a positive person who tries to see the better side of things. but when things get tough and the going gets rough, how can you still expect me to stay upbeat.

but why am i even complaining when there are others in a much worse situation than im in. when there are others fighting an even harder battle than i am. when there are still others who are holding on tight to a mere string of hope for a better future.


i dont know about you but i feel that we are just too blessed with the things we have that we tend to forget the less fortunate. and take fer granted what we already have.

what is around now might not still be with us in the next two weeks, or even, the very next day.


i feel this entry's a whole mess.