school was just for an hour today. and we werent actually even supposed to have the class. so by right, we could have the day off. and carrying that thick IMC killer around was makin me have a headache.
but anyways.
hung around at fast food with Mie till her filming time with Dee at 1230. was supposed to cover up for Dee who was sick but couldnt la. too much chores waiting for me at home. sori yah gurl ; )
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i am still so ashamed of myself at the moment of irrationality. cuz my motto in life has always been to give others a chance to explain themselves first before jumping into conclusions BLINDLY.
yet i failed to do this at a time when it was most needed.
and so i reacted irrationally. and im still not proud of it.
i mean i just cant get over the fact that i let my emotions get the better of me at the expense of someone else's innocence.
too much shit happening now. that for a moment i couldnt think straight and allowed myself to be blinded by my emotions.
its just that i want you to know that i really feel bad for my irrationality. i know its cool now but i just cant forgive myself because i pride myself on being able to have a clear mind on stuffs, such that when i failed to do so, i just am disappointed in myself.
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i hope im not falling into that dark pit. i cant afford to.
not now anyway.
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